Lots of high publicity suicides it seems lately. I had thought about this the few times Cancer and just death in general have come up on threads in here.
I have seen it way too many times. Part of the job I guess? Young, old, friends, relatives, co-workers etc. It is etched in my brain on the ones I have experienced. Just something you can never forget.
This is my view and my opinion and I will say in the last 18 years as a cop my thoughts have changed. I use to be one who thought "how selfish of that person to take their own life and make others go through agony".
The change for me is knowing I will not be on this earth forever. That is called living and part of it is dying. I have watched people go through lots of physical pain, emotional pain in the struggles of trying to take their last breath or deal with the demons they can not control.
So my change is this. You don't have to agree. If I am at my last end of my days. I am suffering, in pain, living off pain meds etc. As someone on here said it best "it is time for me to walk in the woods and not return".
Sorry not for all of you I know and you may say what a freakin a hole. Watching my mom in Hospice a couple of years ago really turned me. Religious aspect? I attend Church on a regular basis. Am I the best example of a Christian? Nope.
Our Pastors sister committed suicide many yrs ago. Does he like doing a service for a person who committed suicide? I would say no. Can he relate more on the human side? yeah, I think so.
If I can not live in a comfort of state and enjoy this earth there may come a time that it is time for me to walk that walk. I can only hope when it is time the good Lord will take me and I do not have to resort to this.
So all those people I looked down on and how selfish they were makes me wonder. I hope they are in a better place because for some it was helll here on earth.
Please take note. IN NO WAY SHAPE OR FORM AM I STATING I AM AT THE END OF MY ROPE AND THINKING OF SUICIDE. DON'T WANT TO GET ANY WEIRD CALLS. Just thinking out loud.
I have seen it way too many times. Part of the job I guess? Young, old, friends, relatives, co-workers etc. It is etched in my brain on the ones I have experienced. Just something you can never forget.
This is my view and my opinion and I will say in the last 18 years as a cop my thoughts have changed. I use to be one who thought "how selfish of that person to take their own life and make others go through agony".
The change for me is knowing I will not be on this earth forever. That is called living and part of it is dying. I have watched people go through lots of physical pain, emotional pain in the struggles of trying to take their last breath or deal with the demons they can not control.
So my change is this. You don't have to agree. If I am at my last end of my days. I am suffering, in pain, living off pain meds etc. As someone on here said it best "it is time for me to walk in the woods and not return".
Sorry not for all of you I know and you may say what a freakin a hole. Watching my mom in Hospice a couple of years ago really turned me. Religious aspect? I attend Church on a regular basis. Am I the best example of a Christian? Nope.
Our Pastors sister committed suicide many yrs ago. Does he like doing a service for a person who committed suicide? I would say no. Can he relate more on the human side? yeah, I think so.
If I can not live in a comfort of state and enjoy this earth there may come a time that it is time for me to walk that walk. I can only hope when it is time the good Lord will take me and I do not have to resort to this.
So all those people I looked down on and how selfish they were makes me wonder. I hope they are in a better place because for some it was helll here on earth.
Please take note. IN NO WAY SHAPE OR FORM AM I STATING I AM AT THE END OF MY ROPE AND THINKING OF SUICIDE. DON'T WANT TO GET ANY WEIRD CALLS. Just thinking out loud.
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